There's a post over at a day in the life expressing a lot of the frustrations of swimming against the tide. It's so easy for people to think this way, yet it can be so much harder to break up their complacency.
The emotional fall out from being a target of stigma can make you feel weak, but are we as all that? A lot of it is that we operate wholly on the premise of what is wholly antipathetic to us. We also are trying to deal in reality whereas the others have the luxury of simplistic fictions which are easy to repeat.
Truth is often elusive, hard to reach, we are seeking it and that cannot compete with the neatness of falsehood that doesn't test itself against facts, just its own constructs.
I wonder if they realise how boring it is to be them, not interpreting things for themselves receiving points of view being spoon fed by those seeking to manipulate both us and them?
The difficulty of swimming upstream is shown by those who do not, their sense of safety and security contrasts with the more vulnerable and questing hearts.
Friday, 12 June 2009
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
Subjective/ objective
When it comes to objecting to fat acceptance, it is often said that certain people are well meaning. This may be to distinguish them from those who are seen as most definitely not, such the weight loss diet industry, MeMe Roth etc.
I disagree, so what do I consider to be well meaning? First off, listening and hearing what the person has to say about their own experience. For instance, an appointment with a doctor is called a consultation, not a dictation, s/he asks you what is wrong, your subjective answers, plus whatever can be observed, is filtered through the perspective of their knowledge, training and experience into an objective assessment.
It's like a piece of string, on one end is the objective-the removed observation and at the other end, is the subjective, the intimate, insider view. The objective, that which can be noted by others repeatedly and similarly, is in a way the refinement of subjectivity, now observable not just by the other, but by you. It's like a pulse of flowing data along a fibre optic cable.
The differences are in what can be seen or perceived or noticed. When you go out with your zip undone, unknowingly, anyone can observe it, objective, you can also observe it to, a subjective view of an objective fact.
Your feelings about it, you are mortified, or you find it funny, subjective. That subjectivity, can be shared invoking similar kinds of reactions in others, or other surprising ones.
The subjective informs the objective, we've all heard the doctor say, when people have x like you, they usually feel y or have response z to it. The subjective and objective have a relationship to each other, when people are not listened to, especially those having the experience, that cannot be properly understood.
If you do not want to listen, you do not wish to understand, to master, to progress, wishing to stay with what you already have, to not add to that, except perhaps on the terms of your already formed conviction.
Asking about your pain, not only where it is, but what kind, the frequency, level etc., This is drawing out subjective information, it's your pain, but how you answer helps the doctor to diagnose or confirm your condition, objectively.
There is no such thing as shunning the subjective experience and labeling it "irrelevant" or "lies" because its not what you want it to be. Any wise scholar will tell you, you can often learn far more about the group you are studying from their mistakes, errors, even lies, than you can from sketchy, objective but incomplete truth.
If fat people only lie, then interpreting those lies objectively, not false morality would be well meaning more than that, a good job.
I disagree, so what do I consider to be well meaning? First off, listening and hearing what the person has to say about their own experience. For instance, an appointment with a doctor is called a consultation, not a dictation, s/he asks you what is wrong, your subjective answers, plus whatever can be observed, is filtered through the perspective of their knowledge, training and experience into an objective assessment.
It's like a piece of string, on one end is the objective-the removed observation and at the other end, is the subjective, the intimate, insider view. The objective, that which can be noted by others repeatedly and similarly, is in a way the refinement of subjectivity, now observable not just by the other, but by you. It's like a pulse of flowing data along a fibre optic cable.
The differences are in what can be seen or perceived or noticed. When you go out with your zip undone, unknowingly, anyone can observe it, objective, you can also observe it to, a subjective view of an objective fact.
Your feelings about it, you are mortified, or you find it funny, subjective. That subjectivity, can be shared invoking similar kinds of reactions in others, or other surprising ones.
The subjective informs the objective, we've all heard the doctor say, when people have x like you, they usually feel y or have response z to it. The subjective and objective have a relationship to each other, when people are not listened to, especially those having the experience, that cannot be properly understood.
If you do not want to listen, you do not wish to understand, to master, to progress, wishing to stay with what you already have, to not add to that, except perhaps on the terms of your already formed conviction.
Asking about your pain, not only where it is, but what kind, the frequency, level etc., This is drawing out subjective information, it's your pain, but how you answer helps the doctor to diagnose or confirm your condition, objectively.
There is no such thing as shunning the subjective experience and labeling it "irrelevant" or "lies" because its not what you want it to be. Any wise scholar will tell you, you can often learn far more about the group you are studying from their mistakes, errors, even lies, than you can from sketchy, objective but incomplete truth.
If fat people only lie, then interpreting those lies objectively, not false morality would be well meaning more than that, a good job.
Monday, 8 June 2009
Liz Jones knows
Excellent piece by Liz Jones. I wish women could write more often with this kind of uncompromising candour on our experiences and feelings about eating and weight.
Funnily enough, she's a writer I tend to avoid some of that is why she can write something like this. Its usually where she points her aim that causes me to give her a miss.
What her article illustrates for me is the extent to which caloric and dietary restriction can affect the way you think at a biological level, leading you to think in ways and assume attitudes that can clash with your ethical sensitivities.
She is at the extreme end of that, she says she is anorexic and was once hospitalized because of it. We assume this process of mental change only happens to people who have anorexia, but it clearly observable in people who believe in it as a model of how to eat-to remain slim- or to lose weight too.
Those who push dieting and dietary restriction can also be very seriously affected by similar change to their perspective, judgment and thinking.
This I believe is the primary source of fat hating.
A lot of her attitudes seem closer to those of confirmed dieters something that isn't usually heard from those with anorexia, who tend to focus on how sad it is, if not for that, this overlap would probably be more obvious. Dieting is the number one vehicle for anorexia and inducing it-as well as other eating disorders. What her piece reveals is this abuse of self fuels a lot of frustration-you can't escape yourself-which has been turned on fat people as if it is our fault that they have to put themselves through this.
The hatred and anguish against our purported gluttony, real or imagined is the fury of self denial, showing that it is far from being in control. In fact, as the appearance of 'control' tightens its grip, fat people end up being used as part of supporting that process, whether we like it or not because that person is out of control. When people hurt themselves they often feel entitled to meet their needs at the expense of others.
We are too often treated like blank Scrabble pieces. Others wish to use us or their image of us for their own purposes. It is convenient to see us as not having needs over and above serving their own, our support is meant to be food, I suppose. I'm sure that's why its so important that we eat a lot, we have to be satisfied or the use made of us would seem gratuitous.
It was only when dieting and especially dietary restriction in the form of "healthy eating" became a prevalent expectation and threat to everyone that benign and more accepting views of fat people receded. Anger replaced them and the approval of benign unquestioned authority such as medical doctors underpinned with scientific approval, gave a sense of righteousness that has helped remove restraint of showing that to fat people.
It is respectable to be staggeringly rude and abusive, any protest is seen as oversensitive, its suggested that this is something to do with why fat people are fat. It might be, but not as assumed. Deliberately distressing people is likely to add to their level of stress and woe. If that is seen as in response to what is acceptable and reasonable, it can be presented as unreasonable.
Usually writing about anorexic behaviour is an internally focused sob story seeking to distance it from weight loss dieting, this is unusual because it steps up to explore more contentious attitudes such as feelings of cleanliness and superiority, that is seen all over the crisis mentality, it is brave as its not particularly self sympathizing, in fact, not at all.
She states that she wanted to do the same as the models in magazines-she has worked in fashion for most of her career-risking seeming shallow and trivial, as a lot of people have dismissed this. But I don't feel it is, a lot of that is contempt for women really, no I feel like its about the woman you want to become. There is something about drawing your own life, represented as much by your body as about it, so intricately, through the mathematics of calorie counting that suggests a desire for security and certainty.
She has caused upset as she has not pulled her punches with regard to her feelings about fatness. I find that more forgivable than most as she has not spared herself either and given the context, I don't feel it is excessive.
What she conveys helps to explain is what is really fuelling the dark undertone of compressed fury that marks the current bullying campaign against fat people and its total lack of rationale. In this case this is against the self, therefore accountable for her actions in a way that obesity warriors are not. You will never hear such truths from them as they are self deceiving.
She I don't think is, that might be a kind of arrogance, but I can live with that.
By showing the way her feelings about calorie restriction diverge from her rational ability to assess her own behaviour as incompatible with her own ethics, she helps give real insight into how this crusade has spread, the way it can bypass the normal moral standards of those investing energy in it.
A lot of fat people wish to claim it is just instruction from above. That's about trying to find a way around the extent of coldness, it doesn't touch on the combustible power of denying yourself to fuel a hatred of fat people.
Far from the assumption that the ubiquitous fat hating of today is an extension of fat bullying of yore, it actually took a while for 'obesity' wallahs to get people on board to this extent. In fact a lot of people dismissed them and for years they couldn't give 'obesity' away (see "conclusions" at the bottom of page 105 and note the date 2001). It has always been a real Cinderella subject, which is perhaps why we know little about weight.
It's nonsense to say the crisis is deep seated.
Only when they got everyone on board with the idea of watching your weight-the idea that no matter what you weigh now, you must be doing something to prevent the possibility of fatness. We must all develop a fear fatness, the greater the better. When the amount of people on board reached a critical mass, it supports such ugliness and makes it seem OK.
In short, they've got more or less everyone on a diet, feeling like they should be on one and that this is the norm of eating which all other eating ought to be judged by, lessening every one's ability to understand what normal eating is like, which comes to seem like a disorder. The disorder becomes the norm.
That's the fury of fat hate always ready to happen, people doing it to themselves, means they can do it to us, we're alright, because we are clearly satisfying ourselves, at every one's expense.
This is what enabled it to adhere to people's minds whereas before they were somewhat indifferent or unpredictable about it. Dieting/anorexia chemistry, is what has spread and created this peculiarly aggressive strain of fat hate.
That is the glue which holds it all together.
Ask yourself, why should anyone really care so much about what anyone weighs? Do you care what slim people weigh? I know I don't, nor do I care what they eat /don't eat. You can only be made to care about that when it has a vehicle to make it personal.
Funnily enough, she's a writer I tend to avoid some of that is why she can write something like this. Its usually where she points her aim that causes me to give her a miss.
What her article illustrates for me is the extent to which caloric and dietary restriction can affect the way you think at a biological level, leading you to think in ways and assume attitudes that can clash with your ethical sensitivities.
She is at the extreme end of that, she says she is anorexic and was once hospitalized because of it. We assume this process of mental change only happens to people who have anorexia, but it clearly observable in people who believe in it as a model of how to eat-to remain slim- or to lose weight too.
Those who push dieting and dietary restriction can also be very seriously affected by similar change to their perspective, judgment and thinking.
This I believe is the primary source of fat hating.
A lot of her attitudes seem closer to those of confirmed dieters something that isn't usually heard from those with anorexia, who tend to focus on how sad it is, if not for that, this overlap would probably be more obvious. Dieting is the number one vehicle for anorexia and inducing it-as well as other eating disorders. What her piece reveals is this abuse of self fuels a lot of frustration-you can't escape yourself-which has been turned on fat people as if it is our fault that they have to put themselves through this.
The hatred and anguish against our purported gluttony, real or imagined is the fury of self denial, showing that it is far from being in control. In fact, as the appearance of 'control' tightens its grip, fat people end up being used as part of supporting that process, whether we like it or not because that person is out of control. When people hurt themselves they often feel entitled to meet their needs at the expense of others.
We are too often treated like blank Scrabble pieces. Others wish to use us or their image of us for their own purposes. It is convenient to see us as not having needs over and above serving their own, our support is meant to be food, I suppose. I'm sure that's why its so important that we eat a lot, we have to be satisfied or the use made of us would seem gratuitous.
It was only when dieting and especially dietary restriction in the form of "healthy eating" became a prevalent expectation and threat to everyone that benign and more accepting views of fat people receded. Anger replaced them and the approval of benign unquestioned authority such as medical doctors underpinned with scientific approval, gave a sense of righteousness that has helped remove restraint of showing that to fat people.
It is respectable to be staggeringly rude and abusive, any protest is seen as oversensitive, its suggested that this is something to do with why fat people are fat. It might be, but not as assumed. Deliberately distressing people is likely to add to their level of stress and woe. If that is seen as in response to what is acceptable and reasonable, it can be presented as unreasonable.
Usually writing about anorexic behaviour is an internally focused sob story seeking to distance it from weight loss dieting, this is unusual because it steps up to explore more contentious attitudes such as feelings of cleanliness and superiority, that is seen all over the crisis mentality, it is brave as its not particularly self sympathizing, in fact, not at all.
She states that she wanted to do the same as the models in magazines-she has worked in fashion for most of her career-risking seeming shallow and trivial, as a lot of people have dismissed this. But I don't feel it is, a lot of that is contempt for women really, no I feel like its about the woman you want to become. There is something about drawing your own life, represented as much by your body as about it, so intricately, through the mathematics of calorie counting that suggests a desire for security and certainty.
She has caused upset as she has not pulled her punches with regard to her feelings about fatness. I find that more forgivable than most as she has not spared herself either and given the context, I don't feel it is excessive.
What she conveys helps to explain is what is really fuelling the dark undertone of compressed fury that marks the current bullying campaign against fat people and its total lack of rationale. In this case this is against the self, therefore accountable for her actions in a way that obesity warriors are not. You will never hear such truths from them as they are self deceiving.
She I don't think is, that might be a kind of arrogance, but I can live with that.
By showing the way her feelings about calorie restriction diverge from her rational ability to assess her own behaviour as incompatible with her own ethics, she helps give real insight into how this crusade has spread, the way it can bypass the normal moral standards of those investing energy in it.
A lot of fat people wish to claim it is just instruction from above. That's about trying to find a way around the extent of coldness, it doesn't touch on the combustible power of denying yourself to fuel a hatred of fat people.
Far from the assumption that the ubiquitous fat hating of today is an extension of fat bullying of yore, it actually took a while for 'obesity' wallahs to get people on board to this extent. In fact a lot of people dismissed them and for years they couldn't give 'obesity' away (see "conclusions" at the bottom of page 105 and note the date 2001). It has always been a real Cinderella subject, which is perhaps why we know little about weight.
It's nonsense to say the crisis is deep seated.
Only when they got everyone on board with the idea of watching your weight-the idea that no matter what you weigh now, you must be doing something to prevent the possibility of fatness. We must all develop a fear fatness, the greater the better. When the amount of people on board reached a critical mass, it supports such ugliness and makes it seem OK.
In short, they've got more or less everyone on a diet, feeling like they should be on one and that this is the norm of eating which all other eating ought to be judged by, lessening every one's ability to understand what normal eating is like, which comes to seem like a disorder. The disorder becomes the norm.
That's the fury of fat hate always ready to happen, people doing it to themselves, means they can do it to us, we're alright, because we are clearly satisfying ourselves, at every one's expense.
This is what enabled it to adhere to people's minds whereas before they were somewhat indifferent or unpredictable about it. Dieting/anorexia chemistry, is what has spread and created this peculiarly aggressive strain of fat hate.
That is the glue which holds it all together.
Ask yourself, why should anyone really care so much about what anyone weighs? Do you care what slim people weigh? I know I don't, nor do I care what they eat /don't eat. You can only be made to care about that when it has a vehicle to make it personal.
Rebound
Rebound weight gain refers to weight re-gained after loss on a diet.
When dieting was revived it was assumed if you reduced your calorie intake, drastically to lose say 50 lbs your body would use up that stored weight. Like having 50 shekels and spending them.
And that would be the end of that.
That expectation was shattered when it turned out folks kept re-gaining what they'd lost, sometimes more. For a while people repeated and repeated the experiment, only to find the same result.
At some point it this was acknowledged to be a facet of weight loss and the term rebound was born to indicate how the weight was like a boomerang. You threw it out and it came back. The battle then extended to how to keep that rebound from happening.
The strategy was stay on a diet for life,or lifestyle as its now known.
No one has satisfactorily explained why this initially and understandably unexpected fillip should occur. It makes even less sense than a lot of aspects of dieting and that's really saying something. The usual excuse is of course to blame dieters, it's because they "returned to their old habits".
But why?
After enduring often a lot of pain, discomfort and boredom of a diet, often with an appetite and hunger that has become depressed or impotent in despair of ever being satisfied. Why wouldn't people if they return to eating the foods they like, just not eat them but far less as they've shown they can do by losing the weight in the first place?
Because some equal and opposing force is set in motion by the restriction itself and that plays itself out eventually.
If you miss breakfast, you eat more at lunch, if you miss lunch as well, you eat more at dinner than you would have if you'd only missed breakfast.
The same for missing meals applies to missing lots of meals or the missing parts of many curtailed meals. If that sounds almost like the body's keeping some kind of tally of the missing grub/ weight then that shows up something else that's never answered.
The body can have a very long memory. Years ago this was discovered and even named, it's was called "retired athletes syndrome". After decades of intense physical activity often starting from early childhood, sportsmen and women can find that once their sporting career is over, their bodies start to try and make good all that 'missing; energy. A bit like the body regaining after a weight loss diet.
As you can imagine, this is put down the usual, they stopped exercising, they continued to eat what they ate when they were active. Again, why? They eat more because their use of their bodies demands more as they are using up more energy. If they cease to be active why would they continue indefinitely-adjustment period aside- to eat what their body no longer needs?
It all smacks of an excuse to explain the inexplicable, that something else is going on which doesn't fit the diet hypothesis model. The excuses of course do.
If post diet rebound was just spontaneous elective greed, why wouldn't amounts re-gained vary significantly be more individual? Why would they so often more or less the starting weight? Furthermore, it is the way the body adjusts itself during the process.
This is most clearly seen when the rebound is more or less immediate. The person is dragged quickly back to their starting point with a swiftness that can be breathtaking, in a fraction of the time it took to lose it. Yet when the body approaches the starting weight, it slows down sometimes gain comes to a virtual dead halt.
How can it keep doing that randomly?
Maintaining equilibrium is clearly the body's goal and it has nothing to do with intent or willpower or anything conscious. The pattern is too clear, too predictable, too repeatable to be put down to deliberate willfulness on the part of dieters.
When dieting was revived it was assumed if you reduced your calorie intake, drastically to lose say 50 lbs your body would use up that stored weight. Like having 50 shekels and spending them.
And that would be the end of that.
That expectation was shattered when it turned out folks kept re-gaining what they'd lost, sometimes more. For a while people repeated and repeated the experiment, only to find the same result.
At some point it this was acknowledged to be a facet of weight loss and the term rebound was born to indicate how the weight was like a boomerang. You threw it out and it came back. The battle then extended to how to keep that rebound from happening.
The strategy was stay on a diet for life,or lifestyle as its now known.
No one has satisfactorily explained why this initially and understandably unexpected fillip should occur. It makes even less sense than a lot of aspects of dieting and that's really saying something. The usual excuse is of course to blame dieters, it's because they "returned to their old habits".
But why?
After enduring often a lot of pain, discomfort and boredom of a diet, often with an appetite and hunger that has become depressed or impotent in despair of ever being satisfied. Why wouldn't people if they return to eating the foods they like, just not eat them but far less as they've shown they can do by losing the weight in the first place?
Because some equal and opposing force is set in motion by the restriction itself and that plays itself out eventually.
If you miss breakfast, you eat more at lunch, if you miss lunch as well, you eat more at dinner than you would have if you'd only missed breakfast.
The same for missing meals applies to missing lots of meals or the missing parts of many curtailed meals. If that sounds almost like the body's keeping some kind of tally of the missing grub/ weight then that shows up something else that's never answered.
The body can have a very long memory. Years ago this was discovered and even named, it's was called "retired athletes syndrome". After decades of intense physical activity often starting from early childhood, sportsmen and women can find that once their sporting career is over, their bodies start to try and make good all that 'missing; energy. A bit like the body regaining after a weight loss diet.
As you can imagine, this is put down the usual, they stopped exercising, they continued to eat what they ate when they were active. Again, why? They eat more because their use of their bodies demands more as they are using up more energy. If they cease to be active why would they continue indefinitely-adjustment period aside- to eat what their body no longer needs?
It all smacks of an excuse to explain the inexplicable, that something else is going on which doesn't fit the diet hypothesis model. The excuses of course do.
If post diet rebound was just spontaneous elective greed, why wouldn't amounts re-gained vary significantly be more individual? Why would they so often more or less the starting weight? Furthermore, it is the way the body adjusts itself during the process.
This is most clearly seen when the rebound is more or less immediate. The person is dragged quickly back to their starting point with a swiftness that can be breathtaking, in a fraction of the time it took to lose it. Yet when the body approaches the starting weight, it slows down sometimes gain comes to a virtual dead halt.
How can it keep doing that randomly?
Maintaining equilibrium is clearly the body's goal and it has nothing to do with intent or willpower or anything conscious. The pattern is too clear, too predictable, too repeatable to be put down to deliberate willfulness on the part of dieters.
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Feederism is dieting
The thing about calorie manipulation is the focus is on its use in reducing weight, so its often forget that it works both ways as they say. I don't even think this is news, people who overfeed or starve are not necessarily in opposition to each other, really. They're more like two halves of a whole principle.
That monitoring calories is some kind of life enriching experience and modus vivendi.
The one creates the other, surfeit causes need for deficit to restore balance and vice versa. Both advocates for indulging in wilful excess and wilful paucity seek to split one from the other as if unrelated.
This relationship is why fat acceptance is often described carelessly as advocating for mindless excess by those who advocate for mindless scarcity. As they don't get out of their heads, much if at all and see it as their role to tell fat people everything, as that is what they understand, that is what they presume. They don't get FA.
Obesity wallahs and those who sell slimming see it as the opposite of their dieting cult, as that's how they define being fat. When in fact, fat acceptance is separate from using weight as a signifier and regulator of self esteem.
Unlike any of the above, including feeders.
It is called "acceptance" not, acceptance when I've lost/gained x amount, thereby being kept mostly in a state of increasingly heightening anxiety waiting to be allowed to feel okay about yourself and for that often to become a problem in itself.
Waiting to really exist, after experiencing that with dieting, who needs that? I've certainly more than had my fill.
The more respectable end of "overeating" deliberately eating in excess of your body's needs are those who are or consider themselves "underweight" and wish to increase it to a higher level. They often complain too of being failed by the energy route.
Though the frequent refrain of all the help is for fat people is not charming.
When a person especially one who is already fat or seeks to become so, they are indulging "feederism".The purpose of this is to gain pleasure from eating and gaining weight, exactly the mirror image of those who gain pleasure from under eating-eating less than your body demands.
It is categorized as a sexual fetish, by those who define it official and those who participate, but I suspect there may be some confusion about the difference between enjoyment pleasure and sexual pleasure.
Sometimes the latter is about context, I find it hard to see how one can get sexually overexcited about eating as I would think it could get perilous.
It has other flaws of calorie restriction, pushing yourself to eat outside your requirements can disrupt your body's ability to regulate itself, sometimes permanently. I should think it can be hard emotionally too, indeed, there is a role in all this of "encourager" suggesting it requires a lot of effort to keep overriding your needs.
One thing it does have going for it in comparison is it doesn't restrict calories, which is the essence of what the body is defending when it sees off slimming attempts. Because of that, it doesn't invoke that extent of taxing response and is on the whole, not as harmful as anorexia in the short to medium term, though I'm sure it varies according to people's innate susceptibilities.
Its not unusual for feeders to flit from there to slimming and back again, I suppose its like feast after famine of dieting, but less fraught.Some like the sense of control and of changing one's weight, in a similar way to those who enjoy it the other way around.
They get a good feeling from doing something they're good at the way weight loss dieters can.
I have to be honest, I dislike the idea of feederism intensely. As someone who had a compulsive eating disorder, I don't appreciate an imitation of it being turned into someone's of punked out fetish. Nor do I like the idea that someone with similar problems to the ones I had would be exploited by creepy people getting off on diverting it into control over them.
I know that some feeders feel fat acceptance is about worshipping fatness, for me it isn't, it's about the power of being connected and respectful of yourself and your body and its needs either way.
I don't feel feederism achieves this, where it isn't sinister it tries too hard, making people inadequate as they are.
That monitoring calories is some kind of life enriching experience and modus vivendi.
The one creates the other, surfeit causes need for deficit to restore balance and vice versa. Both advocates for indulging in wilful excess and wilful paucity seek to split one from the other as if unrelated.
This relationship is why fat acceptance is often described carelessly as advocating for mindless excess by those who advocate for mindless scarcity. As they don't get out of their heads, much if at all and see it as their role to tell fat people everything, as that is what they understand, that is what they presume. They don't get FA.
Obesity wallahs and those who sell slimming see it as the opposite of their dieting cult, as that's how they define being fat. When in fact, fat acceptance is separate from using weight as a signifier and regulator of self esteem.
Unlike any of the above, including feeders.
It is called "acceptance" not, acceptance when I've lost/gained x amount, thereby being kept mostly in a state of increasingly heightening anxiety waiting to be allowed to feel okay about yourself and for that often to become a problem in itself.
Waiting to really exist, after experiencing that with dieting, who needs that? I've certainly more than had my fill.
The more respectable end of "overeating" deliberately eating in excess of your body's needs are those who are or consider themselves "underweight" and wish to increase it to a higher level. They often complain too of being failed by the energy route.
Though the frequent refrain of all the help is for fat people is not charming.
When a person especially one who is already fat or seeks to become so, they are indulging "feederism".The purpose of this is to gain pleasure from eating and gaining weight, exactly the mirror image of those who gain pleasure from under eating-eating less than your body demands.
It is categorized as a sexual fetish, by those who define it official and those who participate, but I suspect there may be some confusion about the difference between enjoyment pleasure and sexual pleasure.
Sometimes the latter is about context, I find it hard to see how one can get sexually overexcited about eating as I would think it could get perilous.
It has other flaws of calorie restriction, pushing yourself to eat outside your requirements can disrupt your body's ability to regulate itself, sometimes permanently. I should think it can be hard emotionally too, indeed, there is a role in all this of "encourager" suggesting it requires a lot of effort to keep overriding your needs.
One thing it does have going for it in comparison is it doesn't restrict calories, which is the essence of what the body is defending when it sees off slimming attempts. Because of that, it doesn't invoke that extent of taxing response and is on the whole, not as harmful as anorexia in the short to medium term, though I'm sure it varies according to people's innate susceptibilities.
Its not unusual for feeders to flit from there to slimming and back again, I suppose its like feast after famine of dieting, but less fraught.Some like the sense of control and of changing one's weight, in a similar way to those who enjoy it the other way around.
They get a good feeling from doing something they're good at the way weight loss dieters can.
I have to be honest, I dislike the idea of feederism intensely. As someone who had a compulsive eating disorder, I don't appreciate an imitation of it being turned into someone's of punked out fetish. Nor do I like the idea that someone with similar problems to the ones I had would be exploited by creepy people getting off on diverting it into control over them.
I know that some feeders feel fat acceptance is about worshipping fatness, for me it isn't, it's about the power of being connected and respectful of yourself and your body and its needs either way.
I don't feel feederism achieves this, where it isn't sinister it tries too hard, making people inadequate as they are.
Thursday, 4 June 2009
It's all about me (and you and you)
Not about those who assume they know and know us.
After years, decades, in some people's cases lifetime's of not mattering a damn more than the slimness you can attain, the self loathing you can profess and the delusional belief system you can ascribe to, above all else, its time for our bodies to be our own again. Or possibly, for the first time in our living memory.
Fat people need to be people first. If that sounds a little self absorbed; GOOD , call it a reference to a law of physics, the one about the equal and countervailing force. Consider this focus on self a swinging back to an equilibrium from the focus on what everyone else thinks they know about being fat.
What they say, how they seek to interpret the things happening in your own body, mind and senses. It's about throwing that and them out, no matter how much you love or respect them. Regaining an autonomous understanding of oneself as a fat person. The way things have worked out has led to a final realisation-this is how it's got to be.
Let's all try to regain our dignity around this because things have gone badly awry. It started off innocently enough, we are all just going to get slim (or not become fat). Not too much to ask, in theory. We had a method of doing it given to us, that seemed the height of logic.
We were absolutely hopeful of our success, we had little reason not to be, at first. Though we thought it would be easy, when experience taught us this was not so, we embraced the idea of it taking a lot of effort and hard work, tenacity and not giving in.
We didn't "give in", we realised that this was it, repeating the same thing over and over again, getting the same result, not what we or anyone else wanted of us.Our efforts have proven how genuine we are so we are most entitled to say enough, without the interference of those who have no reason to disrespect us, but do anyway.
After years, decades, in some people's cases lifetime's of not mattering a damn more than the slimness you can attain, the self loathing you can profess and the delusional belief system you can ascribe to, above all else, its time for our bodies to be our own again. Or possibly, for the first time in our living memory.
Fat people need to be people first. If that sounds a little self absorbed; GOOD , call it a reference to a law of physics, the one about the equal and countervailing force. Consider this focus on self a swinging back to an equilibrium from the focus on what everyone else thinks they know about being fat.
What they say, how they seek to interpret the things happening in your own body, mind and senses. It's about throwing that and them out, no matter how much you love or respect them. Regaining an autonomous understanding of oneself as a fat person. The way things have worked out has led to a final realisation-this is how it's got to be.
Let's all try to regain our dignity around this because things have gone badly awry. It started off innocently enough, we are all just going to get slim (or not become fat). Not too much to ask, in theory. We had a method of doing it given to us, that seemed the height of logic.
We were absolutely hopeful of our success, we had little reason not to be, at first. Though we thought it would be easy, when experience taught us this was not so, we embraced the idea of it taking a lot of effort and hard work, tenacity and not giving in.
We didn't "give in", we realised that this was it, repeating the same thing over and over again, getting the same result, not what we or anyone else wanted of us.Our efforts have proven how genuine we are so we are most entitled to say enough, without the interference of those who have no reason to disrespect us, but do anyway.
Monday, 1 June 2009
Less fat
Raises again the issue of difference in experience between those who are less fat and those who are more so than others.
To me this is understandable.
In the past, everyone thought of a fat person as someone who was like the notorious 'headless fatties' presented on TV and in the media.
Then along came post-war plumping up of industrialised nations, then obesity, which focused on the usual crowd for taking doctors advice to heart like a religion, the so-called worried well, that is , the middle classes.
With the subsequent creation of the obesity crisis, it was decided people who weren't particularly fat, but merely chubby counted as health beggaringly overweight; apparently, obesity related problems kick in at a BMI of 30 according to scientists.
The propaganda has been widely and consistently disseminated that obesity is a killer. The point is the remnants of what a fat person is thought to be remains. So on the one hand you've got less fatties, myself included, who count as obese, but aren't all that fat except compared to slim people. So though we have been and are being damaged by the crisis, we may have more in common with slim people a lot of the time than we do with those above what is described crudely as morbidly and super morbidly obese, or whatever they are calling the latter this week.
Everyone is being damaged by this crisis, I've absolutely no doubt about that. And whilst nobody finds very fat entitled moaners telling lesser models that they have no business in FA, tiresome, the counter argument that fattish women or inbetweenies as they called themselves (include me out of that one) are subject to the terrible and special pressure of people saying if you just try a little, you'll be thin, you're so close, is somehow worse is to me, unconvincing.
No doubt that you cannot tell someone's pain or attitude by weight neither converse nor inverse, there simply is no way I can pretend that being 400 lbs is ever not more of a challenge from the point of view of being looked at by others than say being 200 lbs, and I'm really not sure why this cannot be stated outright.
My test for all this kind of thing is, would you swap? I wouldn't swap places with 400 lbs, no offence, funnily enough, I wouldn't swap with 120 lbs of anxious constant weight watching, and fat hating. I wouldn't swap with 140 lbs that was convinced they were fat and that was making them lose the will to live.
IOW, yes, we all have our battles, but it would be a mistake to underestimate what fatter people have to overcome to get where they are. They are more likely to be attacked, more viciously and openly in the streets I think, certainly I was when I blended in less.
The less fat should cease taking so much offence when bigger fatties feel we could be taking the mick, yet at the same time stand our ground if we feel we are being misjudged.
With the subsequent creation of the obesity crisis, it was decided people who weren't particularly fat, but merely chubby counted as health beggaringly overweight; apparently, obesity related problems kick in at a BMI of 30 according to scientists.
The propaganda has been widely and consistently disseminated that obesity is a killer. The point is the remnants of what a fat person is thought to be remains. So on the one hand you've got less fatties, myself included, who count as obese, but aren't all that fat except compared to slim people. So though we have been and are being damaged by the crisis, we may have more in common with slim people a lot of the time than we do with those above what is described crudely as morbidly and super morbidly obese, or whatever they are calling the latter this week.
Everyone is being damaged by this crisis, I've absolutely no doubt about that. And whilst nobody finds very fat entitled moaners telling lesser models that they have no business in FA, tiresome, the counter argument that fattish women or inbetweenies as they called themselves (include me out of that one) are subject to the terrible and special pressure of people saying if you just try a little, you'll be thin, you're so close, is somehow worse is to me, unconvincing.
No doubt that you cannot tell someone's pain or attitude by weight neither converse nor inverse, there simply is no way I can pretend that being 400 lbs is ever not more of a challenge from the point of view of being looked at by others than say being 200 lbs, and I'm really not sure why this cannot be stated outright.
My test for all this kind of thing is, would you swap? I wouldn't swap places with 400 lbs, no offence, funnily enough, I wouldn't swap with 120 lbs of anxious constant weight watching, and fat hating. I wouldn't swap with 140 lbs that was convinced they were fat and that was making them lose the will to live.
IOW, yes, we all have our battles, but it would be a mistake to underestimate what fatter people have to overcome to get where they are. They are more likely to be attacked, more viciously and openly in the streets I think, certainly I was when I blended in less.
The less fat should cease taking so much offence when bigger fatties feel we could be taking the mick, yet at the same time stand our ground if we feel we are being misjudged.
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