Reading Ivan's post brought to mind some of the less talked about costs of our investment in calorie manipulation and weight loss dieting as the solution to weight control.
Those who really need help have nothing much available to them. They just don't seem to matter to those who use the obesity canard to service their own needs.
What he says about his experiences is fascinating, he speaks of his current health struggles and how that brings thoughts of wanting to be thin to his mind. And no, it's not a sin to acknowledge your feelings about being thin.
The issue is what it takes out of you when you can't get there. There is a here and now and that's swallowed up in wishing.
What I would like, in lieu of a real answer for people like Ivan is a route out of that longing, to making the most of where he is now. Making that better, without that seeming as thin as his dream.