Proto-Baby Killah!!!!! Er not quite......

Mystery corner headline;

I was so overweight, I almost killed by ["my"] unborn baby

You've got my attention, what happened? Was it that you, a "so overweight" woman were driven by this to almost end the life of your babe in the womb? Hurriedly reading the list of featured points...."Leila Mounji," for that's the name of the woman concerned, "hit" 15 stone/95kgs/210 lbs during pregnancy due to "poor diet" [hope it didn't hit her back] uh-hum, blah, blubh, blaarrgh.

Falls over next point-"doctors couldn't get the needle into the epidural space around her spine."

Whoah there horsey wh0000ah, say again;

doctors couldn't get the needle into the epidural space around her spine. 

Eh?

Okay let me get this straight in my mind. Someone who trained for years for the specific purpose of administering anesthesia to patients-presumably an anesthetist-was unable to administer such because s/he couldn't insert tha needle into tha patient? This was said to have precipitated a chain of events which led to baby Bella ending up in some trouble;

Medics feared giving her a high-risk general anaesthetic because of her BMI, but felt they had no choice and performed an emergency Caesarean.....Because of the circumstances, baby Bella suffered breathing problems, which subsequently starved her of oxygen.

Because, because, because, not at all tenuous then. Twas the fault of the patient......for having a body. What do anesthetists usually insert needles into, cuddly toys? Perhaps this is a smart, opportunistic move. If it can be established in the consciousness that this kind of thing is to be the failure of the patient via the lackey media no less, that spares medics from having to get over the existence of fat bodies and stop all their churlish pouting about it.

This is in the end why doctors get sued. Because sometimes, if you do not set parameters, axes may grind on you. Let's be candid, that's simply human nature-Why should it be my failure, when it can be yours.

Also unseemly for me anyway, was the acceptance of the woman herself that she almost killed her own child.

Some might say poor fat person blaming themselves, but really? This experience was undoubtedly a shock. It could well have jolted her nervous system into a different countenance. That can alter you-and/or the way you function- even permanently. People have reported all sorts of effects after being shaken up in a car crash, including significant gain/loss of weight.

Weight tends to be somewhat spontaneous in its development-you cannot say precisely why it changes or doesn't, either way. No matter what most like to kid on.

Leila Mounji's reported reaction speaks to the mix of shame, collusion and volition behind self blame. She a rode a diet wave on her own and her daughter's trauma, with the coup de foudre of parental guilt to add extra sting-well, this kind of thing doesn't happen every day.

When it comes to promotion of slimming aka "health", no-holds-are-barred.

It is entirely possible that under the pressure of that ordeal something shifted inside her. And there's nothing wrong with expressing that. There's a difference though between honest reflection and willing (apparent) self abasement towards a certain end. That's most definitely her right, but, it feels unwholesome to witness. Are we this out of ideas?

This has always been at the heart of instigating calorie restriction-creating trauma through shame with added public disgrace. The old, "Someone called me fatty boom boom and I decided I just had to put down the yams." Often, it's for the sake of the children, so they don't get bullied for having a "fat mum"-proto-baby killah's one up on that.

Being ambushed by public humiliation can affect anybody deeply at any time -even instigating a permanent alteration. That's the nervous system, via our brains. It's what people yearn for when they say things like- "Why did no one tell me I was so fat?"

They want someone/thing to ((((shock)))) their system out of its rhythm in hopes that it will reset itself differently. Probably the basis of psychiatrists firing volts through brains and why everyone wants to tell fat people they're fat.

Trouble is the right kind of jolt isn't easy to locate or administer-rather like an epidural-attempts become part of an opposing effect. A surround of chronic unrelieved stress that more likely triggers all sorts of neuroses; anxiety disorders, OCD's, ED's. Permanently overstimulating and therefore draining so much of your available energy.

Wholly defeating the object. 

The nothing happens but you're fat-is in full effect here. At the time of reading, there were only four comments-not one commiserated with little Bella or Leila. It was all about shame there's too many like this or she must have ate more than the reported, good job and so forth. So one has to ask, was this a bad or a good thing given it assisted in there being one less fatty?

Is an ordeal only an ordeal if no one needs to get slim?

Suffice it to say, this reflects the extent to which the obsession with calorie restriction dieting has become the centre around which all concerns must become subordinate.